Reminder to Self

I saw my 2011 Starbucks planner this afternoon and since I am saying no in the meantime to reading romantic novels, I read all the entries on my beloved planner instead and found this:

August 29, 2011

I tend to forget things easily. I’m good at realizing a lot of things but being a hardheaded person that I am, I always convince myself that next time, it will all be different, so I’ll try to do the same things again hoping the result will be different, which in reality never happens, tried and tested. So here’s a reminder to self of the things I’ve realized the hardest of way so I won’t make the same mistakes of hurting the people I love all over again.

1. God above everything else.

No matter what the situation is, always take time to talk to God and attend mass EVERY Sunday. No miss. And the 3 o’clock prayer. Always.

2. Family is always the priority.

The love and respect for mommy and daddy – give it back to them and make it up with them. Try to give them your all whenever you can – the good daughter they keep on losing  has finally come back to stay.

3. Self Respect.

People don’t have the power to take this away from you. It always starts within you. Know your worth and people will value you the same way.

4. Value the people around you.

Always take time to catch up with friends and to ask if they’re okay. You’ll never know when they are having difficulties and sometimes, all it takes is just this question to make a difference to whatever it is they are facing.

5. See the kindness and greatness in EVERYTHING.

No exemptions. Be thankful about everything and always extend help to others.

6. Save and start building for your future.

Keep things simple and be humble in your ways. One peso and five pesos, they are already a fortune for some. So save.

7. Know where you’re heading.

You are already living the path Jesus wants you to go. All the people, the situation or circumstances that comes with it are blessings from God to make your journey as colorful as it can be. So strive to be a blessing to them, too.

P.S. Enough of the ‘playful’ games and ‘life-changing’ adventures, will you?  Learn. 

Old school writing is still the best, isn’t it? I’m so glad I’m keeping my very own life  notes – this, for me, is enough to satisfy my instant reading needs. And I’m so glad that after six months, I no longer have to be reminded about all these because now I can proudly say that I have all these imprinted here – in this gigantic heart of mine. After all, it only takes loving and having a heart to realize all these.

Love, Atty. Rikki.

Dear John, Nicholas Sparks Made Me Crying the Whole Night

It was one of those nights when you have no work the following day (which is so rare since I started working again and which is something I am not so used to anymore) when I decided to catch up on my reading.

I haven’t read a good book for quite a while now, only newspapers once a week, so I picked up this one by Nicholas SparksDear John.

Hmmm, the title’s intriguing. Will it be a coming out of a hidden desire for someone named John? Of finally having the courage to say those unspoken words and revealing those secret feelings? I read on.

And then I got curious all the more – it is John who is speaking. Interesting. I’m more hooked into novels like that, when it is the guy’s perspective you are ‘hearing’. I mean, like the Twilight saga, the one that leaked – Edward‘s side of the story. I love it. Guys and girls really do not think alike and they really do have different ways of acting on it.

And as I read on, I can’t help not crying. And it’s not just the silent one, i was literally sobbing until I finished the whole book because all the things John exposed in that story hit me where it still hurts the most.

So, here, Dear John, I totally am one with you on these things:

1. Love at first sight rarely happens. It’s usually the second or the third encounters or the time you really put an effort to focus your thoughts on the other person, like what happened between you and Savannah, that you can find something so adorable or amusing about that person.

2. Falling for someone does not require a ‘standard’ or an ‘acceptable’ timeframe. It happens when it happens – as you two feel it. Who cares if you just met a few days ago or if you shared only a couple of moments together? What matters is you both feel it and you are both willing to give it a really good shot.

3. Long distance relationship will never really work. Some might say, yeah, it will work, but only until one has to give up something just to address that long distance thing, which  will eventually lead to falling out as well. Or it  ‘might work’, yes, but only for a couple of months because at some point, someone will question the essence of being in that relationship, and when there’s that questioning part – the relationship’s doomed.

4. The honeymoon stage of any relationship is the sweetest and the craziest and the silliest and the ones that can still put a smile on one’s face just remembering those memories even after so many years have gone by. The thing is, it is also the shortest.

5. Respect for your loved one’s decision, no matter how painful or unfair it was for you, is the most noble act of showing and of attesting how you truly love that person. When it was said that it’s over, then it’s over, period. No begging, no asking for second chance, but there will always be those questions. And it was never easy especially if you already know the answers to the questions.

There will be attempts or testing the water stage after some time  but respect for the current situation will weigh heavier than your selfish need to prove something about yourself. And if the love was so great – the hurt and the pain rarely leaves that even the ‘power’ of time to heal it has no use for it especially when things, like novels, like this can suddenly bring you back where you’re trying to move on from.

And just like what John realized, loving someone should bring joy and happiness – not pain or whatever negative feeling there is.

“That’s why I don’t tell people about us. They wouldn’t understand, and I don’t feel the need to explain, simply because I know in my heart how real it was.”

Torn Between Two Loves: UP Law Aptitude Exam (LAE) 2012 and Katy Perry

I’ve been having a hard time the past few days because today, two of my longtime dreams happened to be on the same date: Ate Katy Perry‘s concert and the UP Law Aptitude Exam.

The original time for the UP LAE was 7:30am so I wasn’t bothered because Ate Katy’s concert is at 8:00pm. But when I finally got the test permit last Monday (the deadline for the application with penalty), the time was moved to 1:00pm.

And then I remembered UPCAT and how much time we spent answering the questions so I started to panic that up to this morning, I was having this dilemma whether or not to skip the LAE since I already missed Ate Katy’s concert last time. I’m sure it’ll last up to 6pm and Diliman to Mall of Asia (MOA) is not that near, considering the traffic that concert will surely make.

Then I read friends’ posts on FB wishing the takers of the UP LAE goodluck and I realized I shouldn’t even have a hard time choosing about this – lame :p

So off I went to UP Diliman early (12 noon) and from the long line I saw at the Bocobo Hall’s entrance, I know I really am in UP.

UP Diliman’s Bocobo Hall

College of Law Room 400 Takers

So there was these long lines per room assigned. Take note, three loooong lines just for our testing room alone (Room 400). And we were the last to enter.

My freshman days and memories were somehow relived – seeing these new faces, unsure and scared but more relaxed this time. Until pfffttt … I saw one familiar face from UPLB, a course-mate, Vic, and when I started to look around, I started seeing one familiar face after the other – Kat and the other girl whose boyfriend then is brods (fraternity) with my ex. Haha, small world, nah, we’re in UP, I shouldv’e expected that.

So, how did it go?

We finished almost 6pm. Period. Imagine that. And the questions … wah, the reading comprehensions and the logic and the analysis part I can take, but the computations? Nosebleed. So yeah, I have some oblongs left blank just when I thought I got so good at math and all its computations because I’m in Sales now, hello. But looks like I need more data analysis and more alone-time with data and numbers.

I can’t wait to see the result – for now I’ll just wait and hope for the best. Atty. Rikki – soon. Yay!

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Beginner’s Guide to Driving: What my First Month of Driving Taught me about Me and Life

1. It takes all the guts (in the world) and all the strength (of your being esp. your legs) to drive home for the first time a manual car from Caloocan to Pasig on a Saturday rush-hour night along EDSA.

Yes, guts – oh, and air. I think I forgot to breathe the whole time. First thing I did when I finally got home – took a deep breath because I literally am shaking and felt so weak on my knees.

Lesson: When others doubt, bring all your guts with you and prove them wrong. And when the fear is trying to make its way to you, sing.  It’s a beautiful distraction and it supplies you that much-needed oxygen.

2. It takes a lot of patience and self-control to getting where you want to go and driving says a lot about your personality more than you can ever imagine.

Admit it, driving is sometimes an ego-boosting-thing. It feels like an accomplishment whenever you’re able to overtake one car after the other. And it’s always so tempting to cut someone on their way just so you can have it your way. But really, is it necessary?

Lesson: Stay on your lane and give way – these still remain the surest way to getting home safe. Remember: no rush! Unless you have a delivery or an emergency.

3. No matter how careful you are, if some people are not, you’ll still end up getting scratched.

Just like in life – you try to be nice but if others are not naturally like that, you’ll still be affected or get hurt and the only thing left is for you to accept it.

Lesson: Always always be careful on the road because even if others are not – at least you did your part.

4. Rearview mirror is way more than like your pocket mirror for that instant make-up and re-touch.

I now treat my rearview mirror my trusted guide. I may get a little view on my side but it’s always at the rearview where I am sure to get a complete picture of what’s happening behind my back … and it feels like, someone’s always got my back no matter what.

Lesson: Take a look back where you’ve gone and that will give you the assurance that hey, everything’s alright, you may proceed – just go ahead and move on.

5. Signal is everything.

This is what connects you to the other drivers on the road – the silent way to communicate and to understand one another so you better be good at reading signals. And it’s two way – you should better be good at giving signals as well.

Lesson: Only give signals that you are sure of – signals that are clear to you and to the other people and this applies not just in driving but in real life, too. Trust me – lesser complications happen when you do this.

6. If you know where you want to go, even if you do not know how to go there, you’ll always, always end up being there.

The fun part is, there will always be someone who’ll either show you the way or help you find the way. And this earned me new friends. True, reading road signs will do, but sometimes, asking is way better. You only have to admit you don’t know and accept the fact that there are people who know better than you.

Lesson: Buy a map. Choz. Explore. Do not be afraid of getting lost and of asking for help. The adventure’s worth all the risks.

7. It takes all the sweats in your forehead and all the anxiety there is (especially if you know you’re being watched) to having a decent and perfect parking.

If you find driving easy and you think you’re okay already, wait until you have to park! Looking for a parking space is already a challenge but knowing the different ‘techniques’ to do it – scary.

Lesson: A park boy is a BIG help especially when you’re parked at the roadside. And the coins … you should never ever leave without coins. You’ll need it as much as you need the parking boys.

 

My driving’s not perfect yet but then, just like everything in life … it takes time. Just don’t let other people’s doubts overpower your own capability. If you know you can, do it! Just enjoy everything.

Remember: Every start of the engine is another start of a whole new amazing experience. Happy driving! Love, Rikki.

My Word, My World for 2012: Tenacious

Working for a company for three months and hearing one of the super big bosses describe you to an SVP you’re about to have a very short-notice presentation with as someone who is like her, ‘small but very tenacious’, and repeating that adjective twice, I realized that was the most flattering ‘introduction’ or let’s just say ‘description’ I have ever received so far.

And I’ll be very honest … I googled the word as soon as I got home and got all the more humbled. I know it has something to do with being clingy or with being stubbornly unyielding but that’s only because my understanding of that word was too shallow.

Tenacity, according to Art Petty’s Leadership Caffeine: 5 Ideas for Creating a Tenacious Culture, is all heart … or at least one of those attributes we ascribe to the heart – and is one of those common attributes of successful people.

“Truly tenacious people grab hold of an idea or a cause and refuse to let go until they’ve succeeded, or, until someone finds them passed out in a pool of their own sweat. Of course, what the external observer probably doesn’t know is the tenacious individual hasn’t given up.  He or she is just bowing to nature’s demands and refueling and rethinking while floating in said pool of sweat.”

I know I have a big heart, yeah, and I have a lot of love to give 🙂 but the last part … nah, not yet. I haven’t done anything yet for me to be described as one but i’m working on it every single minute.

I’m just so happy that I have started right this time and really, everything’s at the right places – all the people, all the things I love and I dream of – oh, and remember the Starbucks planner I promised myself to get year after year after year … tadaaa!

Super big thanks to my dearies who donated their Starbucks stickers. Haha. Love and Believe. Let’s all have a tenacious 2012 – all heart and successful!