Dear Daddy …

I remember last year when I had that serious talk with you just one day before I made that life-changing decision.

I came to see you to say my final goodbye and not to ask for your permission. My mind’s made up that time. I was expecting you to get mad at me. I was expecting you to tell me to change my mind. But you did not.

You did not try to stop me. You did not add pain to my bruised heart and to my confused mind. You talked to me so gently and so lovingly and so calmly I was just crying the whole time. How could I hurt you and mommy like that?

You know I’m about to make the biggest mistake of my life but you know me so well you said while crying that if I needed that, go ahead, you’ll support me and you’ll pray for it to work because you love me and you want only the best for me.

Months after I left, mommy told me you always cry thinking of me. Whenever I call and whenever mommy would pass the phone to you, you can only manage to utter a few words and then I’ll hear your broken voice and then you’ll give the phone back to her. That hurts me so much hurting you like that.

After six months and I have learned the hardest of lesson in life, I didn’t hear you say ‘you told me so’. When I arrived that night, you were so excited to see me, and that same night when I was just crying my heart out to mommy, you just let me.

You and mommy never asked me what happened. I came back, you welcomed me wholeheartedly, and you never asked me about anything. You and mommy might have told my brothers and sisters to do the same because from that moment, I never heard them ask as well and I never heard them bring that up until now.

You just let me cry for days and nights that lasted for weeks and when I’m ready to start anew, you supported me all out.

You never get tired listening to my application stories and now, I really see to it that all my decisions, I consult you and ask you what you think about it. You were so excited when I finally got to start on my new job.

You were always waiting for me to come home and I’ll share with you over dinner what happened the whole day. You were with me all morning when we had to wake up as early as 2am and we drink coffee together.

You were the one who had been so insistent on my having to enroll in a driving school when you found out I will soon have to drive a car as part of my work. When I drove home for the first time that car, you were so proud of me and you were so happy.

I always want to see you that happy, daddy.

I work hard these days because I want to make up to our family, to you, especially. I don’t want to hurt you like that again. I don’t want to disappoint you ever again.

For the first few months and we’re working until late at night, I was hurt when you thought I’m doing something wrong again. You told me not to lose the trust you are starting to give back to me. And I proved you that these are all work now and you probably saw my sincerity so you once again tried to understand me and be patient with me.

I am so happy to realize some of your dreams. Everything I know about Sales and business, I learned from you. Your love for driving and your 101’s, I’m trying to apply so you won’t worry about my safety.

I love when we drink beer or wine at home at night while watching TV. I love when we eat together. I love when you get angry at me for being all out to my mommy and brothers and sisters and to my nieces and nephews. I love when you told me last night to think of my self and not to give everything to all of you.

I love you because even when I’m no longer capable of loving myself, you’re there constantly loving me and reminding me to love myself more than anything else. I love you so much because you love me this much, my heart and my whole being is filled with so much love and understanding.

One of our managers texted me this morning extending his regards to you: ‘Regards to your dad too, coz he has done a great job in bringing up a daughter like you!’

Thank you, Daddy! I love you with all my heart and soul. Happy Father’s Day!

Rikki’s One Memory A Day Challenge.06.12.2012

‘Life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quickly you hardly catch it going’ – Tennessee Williams

The Strut

 The Award

The Classic Picture with my Office Buddies turned Bestest of Friends (plus Lowlah)

My first National Sales Conference Fellowship Night experience in my previous company Alaska Milk Corporation (2009 at the Taal Vista Hotel, Tagaytay) 

Just a Phase: Points in Paulo Coelho’s Aleph

I just finished reading Paulo Coelho’s book Aleph  and it left me smiling how the Universe seemed to conspire for me to get hold of it.

I was at that ‘phase’ when I am decided to throw everything away again for a reason I myself was not convinced – self fulfillment gone empty.

I was praying and praying but instead of finding justifications for my rather impulsive decision, the more I was being shown that I have all the reasons to stay and to continue my success story for the very simple reason that everything is a blessing from Him and I am, in return, is being a blessing to others especially to my family and to the people around me.

I came across this book one Saturday, when I promised my ate that I’ll take care of my nieces’ school needs (It’s the start of the school year here in the Philippines and kids really look forward to the day they’ll shop for their new bags, shoes, school supplies, etc.). 

My boss, having the biggest heart I’ve ever known, allowed me to leave work earlier than usual to realize this promise I made to my dearies who came all the way from our province in Quezon for this. I met them at SM Megamall and I’m so happy the whole time because it reminds me of me and my ate’s childhood days that even if it is so tiring, carrying my nieces JC and RJ most of the time, I feel like I’m being a big sister to my ate taking care of her kids.

When we were already at the National Bookstore for the kids’ school supplies, I saw the store’s current best sellers and this Aleph is the number one. I have no plans buying a book that time knowing that I do not have time for that these days but something told me I needed it without even looking at the back part to know what this book is all about so I included it in our purchase.

Exactly a week after that, I have finished reading the book.  Funny thing is, it is also the same day as my supposedly last day. Was I able to reclaim my kingdom the whole time I was going on with Paulo’s journey to finding where he wants to be, doing what he wants to do?

When I talk of right time, I talk of these points I got from Paulo and Hilal’s Aleph that made me realize we all go through phases like this at some point in our life, but reading this when I am exactly at this phase … it’s not just timely, I know this is divine.

So here are the 26 points in their journey that made me feel like I am reading my very own life notes in my 26 years of existence:

1. Now and then I go through periods of inner conflict that can persist for months … long enough to keep me frustrated because I can’t absorb everything I learn.

2. When a sense of dissatisfaction persists, it was placed there by God for one reason only: you need to change everything and move forward

3. Here I am trying to persuade myself that I always give the best of myself, and nature is telling me exactly the opposite: anyone truly committed to life never stops walking

4. We will always need to be humble enough to accept that our hearts know why we are here… We simply have to trust and follow the signs and live our Personal Legend; 

5. If I believe I will win, then victory will believe in me. No life is complete without a touch of madness.

6. I learned long ago that in order to heal my wounds, I must have the courage to face up to them. I also learned to forgive myself and correct my mistakes.

7. We need to be strangers to ourselves. Then the hidden light in our souls will illuminate what we need to see.

8. Routine has nothing to do with repetition. To become really good at anything, you have to practice and repeat, practice and repeat, until the technique becomes intuitive

 9. What hurts us is what heals us

10. Dreamers can never be tamed

11. We learn in the past but we are not the result of that. We suffered in the past, loved in the past, cried and laughed in the past, but that’s of no use to the present. The present has its challenges, its good and bad side. We can neither blame  nor be grateful to the past for what is happening now. Each new experience of love has nothing whatsoever to do with past experiences. It’s always new.

12. People aren’t used to that way of thinking. They want everything to stay the same  – and the consequence of that is pain.

13. You can spend your entire life blaming the world, but your successes or failures are entirely your own responsibility.

 14. It takes a huge effort to free yourself from memory … visit your soul; don’t visit your past

15. We are both creators and creatures, but we are also puppets in God’s hands, and there is a line we cannot cross, a line that was drawn for reasons we cannot know.

16. Being alone may make me more vulnerable but it makes me more open, too

17. Train your heart. That is the discipline every warrior needs. If you can control your heart, then you will defeat your opponent

18. The best way to prepare for a challenge is to cultivate the ability to call on an infinite variety of responses

19. The search for peace is a form of prayer that generates light and heat. Forget about yourself for a while and understand that in that light lies wisdom and in that heat lies compassion

20. We can never wound the soul … , but we can become imprisoned by our memories, and that makes our lives wretched even when we have everything we need in order to be happy

21. Let us concentrate all our efforts on achieving Perfection through the imperfect gestures of everyday life. True wisdom means respecting the simple things we do, for they can take us where we need to go.

22. Going back into the past and reopening old wounds is neither easy nor particularly important.

23. A warrior in search of his dream must take his inspiration from what he actually does  and not from what he imagines himself doing

24.Sometimes you have to travel a long way to find what is near

25. That’s what makes life interesting – believing in treasures and in miracles

26. Only two things can reveal life’s great secrets: suffering and love

At the end of my reading, I found light and I found myself getting out of that phase and found myself moving forward again to realizing my dreams by being here – in the present.

My friend L’s right, this is just a phase and true to what she said that this, too, shall pass – this has passed and I’m so back spreading my love. Hope you find your Aleph, too.

Love, Rikki.

Frabelle Foods First TV Commercial

And the BIG NEWS was finally revealed yesterday, June 2, 2012! The good news: ‘Ang lasang nakasanayan niyo na, may ISASARAP pa’. Because here at Frabelle Foods, the products are ‘SADYANG PINASARAP’

Watch it here:

Tell us what you think about it and help us spread the good news!

Frabelle Foods Big Reveal: June 2, 2012

Less than eight months ago, the Frabelle Foods brand was launched in the Fast Moving Consumer Goods (FMCG) industry and during those months, below the line activations plus the brand’s premium quality and the Company’s heart and commitment to giving the consumers foods that are made with love, we were able to turn that curiosity into loyalty one sampling at a time that also led us to penetrating one supermarket and one public market with one sincere business partnership to buyers and dealers at a time.

Now that the line-up of the trade partners is complete, Frabelle Foods is ready more than ever and more serious than ever in reaching and giving the consumers the authentic way of preparing food so each and everyone can enjoy their family mealtimes to the fullest!

With the last leg yesterday, Friday, of the 5-seconder teaser from morning to evening in GMA shows that started last Tuesday, Frabelle Foods big reveal IS ON starting this Saturday, June 2, 2012!

Tune in on your TV and catch us on the following GMA-7 programs at these times and see for yourself why the next thing you should do is go to your nearest supermarkets or public markets to try and taste what we all pride about and be surprised and delighted as to what our Company has been preparing all these times especially for you …

TIME

PROGRAM

10:30AM – 12:30PM Kapuso Movie Festival
  2:30PM –   4:30PM Startalk TX
  4:30PM –   5:30PM Wish Ko Lang!
  5:30PM –  6:00PM 24 Oras Weekend
   6:00PM – 7:30PM Manny Many Prizes

… because here at Frabelle Foods, we do not just do things … lahat ‘Sadyang Pinasarap’ for you. Happy watching!